I took a non-narcotic muscle relaxer to see if it would relieve this headache I have been carrying around like a ton of bricks resting solely on my brain for the last 3 days. No luck.
Its late. I can not sleep. I am sad. I want to tear out my eyes and squeeze them until they explode between my fingers.
Cigarettes give me a headache. Not smoking gives me a headache. I feel like the world is falling apart in my face. I know I screwed up today, yesterday if you want to be technical, and I am terrified for what tomorrow brings.
Nicorette gives me a headache too.
This blog gives me a headache.
Why is every other blog on here either a families blog "a way of connecting from our corner of the world" kind of crap, or religious malarkey? Might have to find a "hip" place to share my misery, because I know none of these people will enjoy it if stumbled upon.
I think you should leave your blog on here and help make it a cooler place. Plus I don't know if you will find a much hipper place - blogging has a tendency to cultivate insipidness.
ReplyDeleteYou know what would be awesome is if I started a blog about STARTING to smoke and I chronicled my journey into cigarette addiction. You would be SO jealous.
By the way the timestamp on all your posts and comments is in west coast time and is therefore 3 hours before when it was actually posted. Probably something you can change in your settings area or something?
ReplyDeleteI've got the West coast on my mind...
ReplyDeletebut I fixed it.
I could write a entry on my smoking start... I wish this didn't hurt so badly. Currently.. chewing 3 pieces of nicorette gum, shaking my foot violently.. do not want to move out of bed because I will want to smoke. AH. Shower time...